Separation and Loss
I'm in a very disconcerting place this morning. Last night - and purely by accident - I discovered that my mum died at the end of April. Although we were never close (especially since my transition in 2002) that's a hard blow for anyone with a heart.
I really feel for my Dad, but given that they'd made it abundantly clear since 2002 that they don't want anything to do with me I'm not really sure whether to call him or not.
I'm also deeply saddened that none of my family thought it worthwhile telling me of her passing, and that I had to find out from an online news site instead.
Damn. Despite all the rebuffs I'd so hoped to be able to be reconciled with them both one day.